Brother, Sister... lemme tell you. I've BEEN THERE.
I know what you're going through.
If by some miracle you're seeing this despite being on the street in either Los Angeles, or Kansas City, CONTACT ME IMMEDIATELY! I'll give you the straight dope on how to turn it all around. I can help out primarily in two locations: Kansas City, which will receive a quicker and more substantial response, and Los Angeles, were I can get you physically in front of people who can help - dial my Google Voice number: 714-251-6033